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You’d be surprised to learn what a cop experiences during a fatal encounter

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June 5, 2019
Jim McNeffbyJim McNeff
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The human body has quite a reaction to life and death experiences. I will leave it up to medical doctors and psychologist to explain each one. But as I read through David Klinger’s, Into the Kill Zone; A cop’s eye view of deadly force, I took notes. Each response was unique to the specific circumstances and personalities involved. But there were common threads experienced by 80 officers interviewed following fatal encounters.

For most cops, this is nothing new, but I think you’ll still find the list interesting. I also hope friends and family members become aware that these things really happen to those involved in shootings and other critical incidents—regardless of physical and mental toughness!

1. Moments of black out were common.

2. Unexplained movement (lack of memory) from one place to another is not unusual.

3. Action was in slow motion.

4. Event seemed to be an outer body experience—like a dream.

5. Did not hear their weapon fire, even high-powered rifles shooting in areas that produced an echo.

6. Fired more rounds than they remember.

7. Surprised when the suspect(s) did not stop once struck by gunfire.

8. There was no time for critical thinking, just swift reaction.

9. Because of tunnel vision during the actual shooting, much of the bigger picture was undeveloped. As a result, there was a huge need to have gaps filled in once the investigation was complete.

10. Officers frequently thought they missed, even when accurately hitting the suspect(s) with their rounds.

11. Differing perspectives by officers involved are the norm, not the exception.

12. Regret for missing warning signs and/or decisions made is common.

13. Strange dreams before a shooting changed afterward.

14. Wide range of emotions are not unusual and may include:

  • Prolonged bouts of anger
  • Feeling numb
  • Empathy for a wounded suspect
  • Empathy for suspect’s family
  • Unexplained tears
  • Euphoria
  • Vomiting from anxiety
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I was involved in a fatal shooting in 2002. I share my experiences with trepidation. I do not want anything I write to be viewed as smugness, but the humble relay of information. This incident is not a trophy in my war room, but a memory of the pain sustained by two families—mine, and that of the deceased. During my incident, I experienced the following:

  • About two seconds during the five-second encounter are blank. The occipital lobe (visual processing center in the brain) blacked out when I thought death was imminent. It quickly returned during the fight or flight reaction in my body.
  • The deadly encounter seemed to be an out of body experience—as if I were a witness, not a participant.
  • I fired one round from a .45 caliber handgun in close quarters within a residence, yet did not hear my own weapon fire.
  • I had no time to prepare for the deadly assault. I forced my way through a bedroom door expecting a physical fight with an unarmed-barricaded suspect, but found a double-headed axe descending from the sky upon entry.
  • After the axe struck my ribcage, I fired a single round from my weapon. It went through the suspect’s brain stem. He dropped like an accordion, and fell on the weapon. Immediately after the shooting, I did not see the axe. For several seconds I thought I imagined it. During this period of time my brain processed the likelihood that I’d be criminally prosecuted for killing an unarmed man. I cannot begin to explain the relief I experienced when I saw the axe located beneath his body.
  • I was very anxious to have detectives fill me on details that were unknown. The debriefing did not occur for several days. We later learned the individual had been in and out of psyche wards for the better part of 20 years.
  • I thought I missed the suspect when I fired. I incorrectly had the impression someone behind me shot him.
  • There were three additional officers entering the room with me. We all had varying perspectives as to what occurred. The officer behind me thought I was killed. He fired a beanbag at the suspect. No one else had a clear shot.
  • I had tremendous empathy for the mother of the suspect. She was an aging woman being extorted by her son.
  • I was physically fatigued the following day, but had no emotional side effects for five days. Suddenly, sitting in church the following weekend, I began to cry like a baby. Unexplained tears burst from my eyes. I had to hide my face on my wife’s shoulder for several minutes as I could not control my emotions. The sensation stemmed from a private thought, …  today could have been my funeral. Then my imagination ran wild as I considered what life would be like for my wife and kids if I were gone.

Returning to Klinger’s work, when the officer was wounded during the exchange of gunfire, he/she described being hit like this:

15. Burning sensation—like they were on fire.

16. Cutting like a knife.

17. Hot steal.

18. Feeling like a severe sting.

19. Similar to being burned with a cigarette.

Many officers believe there was divine intervention during their deadly encounter.

20. They mentioned the presence of guardian angels.

21. Pictures of loved one’s flashed into their thoughts.

22. There were unexplained circumstances described as miracles.

I believe God spared my life, as I experienced unexplained circumstances that led to my survival.

I do not share these details to glorify the taking of a life. I share them because so many people have opinions regarding officer-involved shootings. But most of these beliefs are misguided. There are physiological and biological realities that are never discussed during news stories.

Related:

  • THERE IS A HAPPY ENDING AFTER MY DAD WAS NEARLY KILLED
  • COPS WHO KILL ARE NOT KILLERS
  • JURISDICTION: A COP AND A PASTOR TALK ABOUT LIFE (AND DEATH)

These factors have a bearing, and offer explanations, regarding circumstances that might appear unexplainable. These factors are not restricted to shootings either. Cops become involved in life changing events every day, and these responses are not unusual. That is why peace officers feel slighted when the human element is missing from the public conversation.

I was fortunate. The only long-term side effect I experienced was regret that I was never allowed to return to speak to the mother of the deceased. I asked for permission to return at successive anniversaries, only to be told “there is no statute of limitations on civil rights violations.” At the fourth anniversary, I once again asked to return to speak with the mother. I was sent to see the psychologist instead. He asked, “Jim, what brings you in today?” When I explained that I simply wanted to speak to the mother of the deceased, he said, “That’s noble. That’s very noble.”

When I retired, I tried to contact the woman, discovered she moved (or passed away), and I did not pursue it further.

Friends in law enforcement, never forget that your work is also noble, very noble indeed!

– Jim McNeff

 


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Jim McNeff

Jim McNeff

Jim McNeff is the managing editor of Law Officer. As a Medal of Valor recipient with more than 30 years of experience in law enforcement and the military, Jim brings experience, insight, and a keen perspective to the issues affecting law enforcement. For nearly a decade, Jim has also served the law enforcement community as a writer and editor following the latest news, facts, and figures concerning law enforcement seven days a week, and 365 days a year. Jim is a retired police lieutenant and served a municipal police department for 28 years. Previously, Jim was a crewmember of the National Emergency Airborne Command Post—a presidential support detail. He holds a Bachelor of Science degree in criminal justice from Southwest University, and is a graduate of the esteemed Sherman Block Supervisory Leadership Institute and the Leadership in Police Organizations IACP course of study. Jim is also the author of three police-related books: The Spirit Behind Badge 145, Justice Revealed, and Jurisdiction.

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